At The Water's Edge
Energy
In Addiction I referred
to a friend that I helped. I would meet with him daily in order to
break the routine of him staying in his house. You might assume that
this was an onerous task, talking about his problems and the situation
he found himself in and I did anticipate feeling like that. However
I would come away from those meetings energised. This wasn't due to
any co-dependency (as proved by easily ending the sessions when my
friend had recovered sufficiently) but due to what I sensed to be
an energy flow between us. Our conversations did touch on his situation
but we also would speak of our common interests in comedy, music and
technology. I really did get this sense of a channel of energy flowing
between us.
Of course I'd like to say that it was my splendid charm, hilarious
sense of humour and the great company that I am which was the significant
contributor to my part in my friend's recovery but actually I've got
a feeling that it's this sense of an energy flow that is key.
A related idea is when there have been times when
I've been working really hard over a long period, everything is going
well and "flowing" and I feel energised as if I could go
on forever. Other times I can be working hard but things aren't going
well, I'm blocked, stuck. It's usually at these times I feel tired
and agitated and things usually go from bad to worse. Again there's
this sense of energy flow. (I feel it's related to this idea of motoring
and sailing that I had in At
The Water's Edge story too.)
Similarly it's the same with people. When I'm with
some people I feel energised and I think this is usually as a result
of energy flowing back and forth, as a result of good communication,
both expressing and listening. Other times when the communication
is just one way or if my communication is suppressed I feel drained
and I go away exhausted, sometimes depressed.
